Going private

Dear all,

There's a news I need to share with you. I've kept this space open through the last 5 years all the while thinking that my life is an open book. My argument was that I could treat the blog as a best friend. I never hid my thoughts here from you. Whether they be sunny or dark. But sadly I've realized that I've attracted too much attention. Which was never my goal in the first place. Some of it also through indiscreet sharing of my link.(** What can I say? I was trying to make friends.** )

I have always maintained one thing, over and above them all. That being I'm not meant to do great things.
(***Why do you all keep saying that I'm meant to do great things in life? Has it ever occurred to you that I perhaps don't want to do great things? That I have a very simple life in mind for myself.***)


I'm just meant to live a happy life. Where I define the happiness. And yeah I find happiness in the small things in life. In music. In friendship. In standing by my loved ones through good times and bad. In putting my two bits to make a difference in somebody's life. In penning my thoughts. In sitting in the sunshine. In buying flowers by the dozens.
 
Unnecessary philosophizing was never really my way. I used to be able to let things be.
Yeah I lost plenty too. My body first and then my mind.

You all have been witness to the loss of the latter. I even played around with one of my cardinal rules. That of privacy. Not only of mine, but also of others involved in my life.

But really I'm no celebrity. No more being publicity-crazy; living my life out in the spotlight. Believe me, I'm really small fry. And I'm happier that way.

Now the news finally - I am declaring this blog private. It'll still be open to those of you who leave their email ids in the comments section.
But please remember something. I'm human. I always have been and always will be. Don't read too much into what I write. Give me the space to breathe.

For those who do not wish to make it through the transit, it was great having you all here. I apologize from the bottom of my heart for all indiscretions committed.
Take care. And have a happy life.

And if you forgive one, you have to forgive them all. Because each time it hurt you just the same. But begin with forgiving yourself.

Happy 2012

Forgive and forget. Forgive and forget. Forgive and forget. On and on in a chant.
Until when? The next time again?
This is suicide.
This is murder.

I am just putting this fact out there - I hate cooking. I can and will survive on fruits and milk and cereal and salads for as long as it takes. Just so that you know. ;)

Time it was, and what a time it was, it was;
A time of innocence,
A time of confidences;
Long ago it must be.
I have a photograph;
Preserve your memories.
They're all that's  left you.

All is well except for one undeniable fact - I am lonely. Terribly so. Since ages now.